Yesterday I watched the movie "The Blind Side" with Sandra Bullock. It's not just a feel good movie.
We have so much coming at us every day of our life. The interactions, the images, the voices and expressions can bombard us with so much negative. What I'm referring to is the News, media, internet, movies. I don't watch the news when Frank is away working. Not doing so releases me from some of the turmoil.
Even so, I often feel upset and conflicted with what I still do see and hear. There's Facebook and John Stewart and Colbert and their highlights of people like Glen Beck and the other Republican antics. The issues that America confronts today (the financial crisis and the banks, health care, the "losses" of the "Middle Class") are portrayed so violently across the media. The rich robber barons are standing firm in their right to steal and call it their due. Those who "had theirs" are screaming and threatening in hatred at those "below" them because they got theirs because they worked and are worthy, while those somewhere below obviously have not and therefore do not deserve - and certainly not from them. Those just below the "Middle Class" and certainly the poor are completely forgotten - except by Obama and those brave enough in Congress to ignore the lies and the threats and push health care through irregardless. Now they turn their focus to the need for financial reform to "save the Middle Class" and America.
Sometimes I feel lucky and sometimes it feels a necessity that I'm home, when it comes to the emotional movements that happen within me on a daily basis. I don't know that I ever made it to the "Middle Class" - at times it felt we were getting close to "having" - when I and Frank were both making good incomes. And then the happenings of this life and the systems set in place moved to return us to "just below" or even in line with the "poor". We've lost two homes, two businesses, and filed bankruptcy over the years. That has reeked its havoc on my self-esteem and self-worth; my ability to believe in a future and my ability to even desire to live this life.
I don't mind being "in line with" the poor. They're some of the best people I know. And my personal "drops" have made me realize that all the more. There but for the Grace of God go I. Because of my personal life experiences I tend to relate more to the "side" of liberal, not of "higher" economic status, and certainly see myself among them. And I don't mind that. What I DO mind are the connotations of lack of worth, laziness, and failure as a result that others apply, and that I have subsequently applied to myself. My "work" at this time in my life is to remove those opinions and connotations from my mindset. That is the lesson this life has given me.
This morning I looked at my checking account to verify that my Social Security had been deposited. With that I will pay my rent. As I looked to see "what will be left" the tightening and rolls that have become the norm for my belly threatened to move me from a place of calm to the grips of fear once again.
And I thought of Sandra Bullock in "The Blind Side". Was she what the media calls The Middle Class or the Rich? It was certainly stated that she and her husband were Republicans (they met their first Democrat in Kathy Bates) and they certainly seemed to have "more than enough" with a huge gorgeous home, ownership of multiple businesses, and the ability to buy without question. They didn't seem to question that ability or their right to have all that they had, nor did they know of the poor or their problems - until they met Michael. Often that has been called arrogance.
The difference, I think, portrayed in this story is that throughout all Sandra Bullock did (and her family)they also didn't question right or wrong. They didn't stop to consider what was right, whether or not someone "deserved" or why. They simply acted from what they knew was right, with love.
In looking at the hatred seemingly portrayed by Republicans and the media's constant influence to increase the hatred within me for the extremists on all sides of all America's issues, I have been asking the Universe to help me see differently. It's what I ask for every day in my life - to see and act from the heart - with love - for myself and all things I encounter.
"The Blind Side" is a great movie for our time. Perhaps that's why it won an Academy award. Perhaps that's why the Universe helped bring it to us at this time. Sandra Bullock helped me to see that Economics don't matter. It doesn't matter whether you are rich or poor, Middle class or somewhere just below - Republican or Democratic - even liberal or conservative.
What matters is believing in yourself and in someone else - whoever you encounter. What matters is acting from love as an individual - and ignoring or standing firm when confronted with those who do otherwise. Economics have nothing to do with it. As they say... Peace begins with US. Love begins with US. When the individual makes the individual choice to do what is right, without outside influence, but through Soul Connected Guidance we are all uplifted. That is what "America" has always stood for. That is why we say, "In God We Trust".
If you trust in the Divine (whatever you conceive that to Be), that trust will assist you in seeing one another differently.
And thus my fear and the nausea in my stomach was moved from a place of fear and hatred to a place of calm. Regardless of what you see in the media, you can also ask to be shown something different - if you are willing to see something different. And the Universe will always oblige.