Go, then, and live these truths . . . that you may spread the joy, feel it in your heart, and know it in your mind. - Friendship With God by Neale Donald Walsch
Something good comes of everything, they say; and sometimes it takes crisis to bring about good. I often speak from generalized sayings, expressions, and cliches, I know. But the more I experience life and contemplate its mysteries the more often the truth found in these sayings reveals itself to me and becomes real in my life. That is why expressions become cliche! They are relevant to life - if we just pay attention.
A couple of nights ago Beth called while in crisis. She was having a hard time with some of her issues. As I've stated before, this is not the place or appropriate for me to discuss those here. Suffice it to say that the moment pushed the panic button for me that all mothers feel when their child is in pain.
For many years now I have studied the psychic/spiritual connection to our physical/material world. At that moment I felt drawn to seek help on a psychic level. Searching the website of a professional, well-known psychic, I found there a forum where you can ask questions and interact. (It's seems a little unfortunate to me - and I suppose to them - that as professionals become more recognized they are also more inaccessible or beyond your personal financial means). But I was happy that the forum was there, and after joining, asked a couple of questions seeking assistance.
The particular thread that I posted to was titled: "Psychic or Psychotic?" This is a consideration made when it comes to mental illness - those deemed mentally ill often experiencing what they feel are positive spiritual/visionary thoughts or negative psychic/otherworldly attacks upon their thoughts. The question of whether these are hallucinations/delusions or "real" is a criteria by which mental illness is diagnosed. (I'll explore that subject further in a later post).
The next day I received a reply from one of the moderators of the forum. Her answer was a calming voice of reason and very welcome. (Just so you know, the next day Beth was once again calm, strong, rational; ready and able to cope with her life issues - as we all must do if we are to overcome them.) As a lady who has also experienced clinical depression in her life, she recommended me to two of her Squidoo.com lenses.
The lady's name is Sandra Lynn Sparks and much of what she said in these posts parallel the understandings that I have developed about myself and my life over the last few years. Here are a couple quotes from http://www.squidoo.com/redefiningjoy.
"I am not afraid of anything I feel. I accept it and go through it. When I am very depressed I rest, and think of it as a rest, not a failure."
"I know myself. I accept myself. I keep going without shame or fear."
Personally it has taken a few years and a lot of heartache for me to be able to make the above statements. However throughout those years I have also had the blessing of Divine Guidance that was with me always - though I still stumbled at times along the path with doubt. When you purposefully seek the Divine, the personal connection will become known in your life. I have experienced Divine Communication and continue in the faith of the knowing that is its result - even though I continue to experience depression.
Reading the posts at the forum and Sandy's Squidoo pages once again inspired and energized me. Sandy's second page, http://www.squidoo.com/madwomanproject, is about creating from out of the darkness, honoring the images and understanding that the dark times can show us. Beyond the art is Sandy's determination and willingness to be a source of support and inspiration to others through the psychic forum, as a psychic, and through her web pages.
I have shared here my frustration with finding a place, a way where I can feel that I contribute to others and myself once again. So many conventional (work or volunteering) possibilities have occurred to me - only to be knocked down by the limitations that are also in my day to day reality.
Refusing to let the low times keep me down, I continue to cultivate the Divine in my life - reading, praying, meditating - having faith in All That Is - and knowing that It has faith in me. Divine Guidance supports and comforts me, speaks to me of my worth, shows me the importance of every life, and brings me joy.
Sharing that is my life's mission. Divine Guidance has encouraged, affirmed, and reconfirmed time after time that it is my work. Divine Guidance has infinite patience.
I believe Beth's crisis and Divine Guidance brought me to the psychic forum and to Sandy - inspiring me and energizing me once again. To be inspired is to be "In Spirit" - flowing with the Universe - receiving and giving from the abundance of All That Is.
As has often happened in the past, I was so filled with inspiration, I was flooded with ideas to share with you. I get so flooded that it can seem overwhelming - how to get them all down and out to you? And then I realized......
I was creating! I create through sharing words and ideas (actually we all do) but my particular means is the written word. Sometimes I just cannot not write! I create from my place of pain. I move from the darkness into the light, embraced by the Light, and share those experiences through this little blog. Receiving financial reward as others do - through a website, e-book, or published book - is no longer a consideration for me; though I continue to ask the Universe to support my economic needs and have faith that It will.
I cannot help but share my life with you. Because God IS LIFE. ALL of life - the good and the bad, the light and the darkness, the pleasure and the pain. Sharing God - Sharing Life is what I do.
It was evening when all this occurred. I was too energized to sleep - but it was time to relax - so that I could wake and share all this with you the next day.
As is my habit, I opened one of my inspirational books to receive from Spirit. I opened Friendship With God by Neale Donald Walsch and read:
Blessings to you my friends.Go, then, and live these truths . . . that you may spread the joy, feel it in your heart, and know it in your mind.