Do you feel the eyes of the judgmental world upon you? I know I always have. It's a very large part of "my insecurity". I was embarrassed about what I looked like and areas where I was "inept". I didn't measure up...
People used to say: "You shouldn't feel like that". But I did. Eventually I came to own it, I wore it, like a thing. It came to define me, more and more, as others saw it too, pointed it out, and I claimed it, as yet another character flaw.
Insecurity - unsure of who you are, what you are, what you do; and most especially, unsure of the world and the people who make it up around you. So I spent a lot of time alone - reading, questioning, asking for answers, quite often in pain.
I've written that I've spent years in that place and that recently the decision to make some changes seems real. Along with "mental illness" I've decided to no longer "wear" "my" insecurity. Insecurity is nothing but an idea. It is an idea that I can "take off" just as I "put it on" for all those years. Either way, it is NOT ME! I've read a lot of books, considered a lot of thoughts, but two books that I've recently read helped to finally solidify large parts of all that. They gave me the sense of personal and spiritual security that I've been seeking my entire life. Many others have come before, but these finally did it for me.
I call them controversial in the title of this post for a couple of reasons. First, they are both said to be "channeled". If you don't know about channeling, or want to know why I believe it, you can read that further on down the post. If you can't consider the concept of channeling, then you probably don't need to read any more of this.
I'm not going to make huge claims on these books. They may not resonate with you like they did for me. Whatever you think, I'd enjoy chatting with anyone about them, and I do encourage you to give them a try.
The first is channeled by JZ Knight who channels the spirit of Ramtha, both of whom appear in the award winning documentary What the Bleep Do We Know. If you've never watched What the Bleep, I very highly suggest you watch that first. What the Bleep is, in itself, very controversial. Many of today's scientists call it "pseudo-science"... but then.... new thinking is often disparaged by the old. Remember Galileo? I'd invite you to make up your own opinion, if you're a person that dares to do that.
The JZ Knight book is simply entitled "Ramtha" or "The White Book". The link is a Google "shopping" search showing several used copies available on the web. (I hope the link stays true. If not, just do your own.) Whether or not you believe in Ramtha the wording, imagery, concepts, and ideas are awe inspiring and uplifting.
The second book is entitled "The Thomas Book" by Bruce Fraser MacDonald, PhD. I call it controversial here not because it is channeled but because the author included in it so much of his own personal conflict surrounding the events of writing the book and in getting the book published. Dr. MacDonald states that he had a near death experience that required years of rehab and meditation. Through the meditation he came into contact with Didymos Judas Thomas, said by some to be the twin brother of Jesus. "The Thomas Book" is said to be Didymos Judas Thomas relating his new "gospel" of what really happened when he was a disciple/contemporary of Jesus the Christ.
Sound way out there? You ain't heard nothin yet! There's much more that I won't go into here. The controversy surrounding this book has me conflicted, as a long time student of "A Course in Miracles" (which also has something to do with the book). Yet I find the Thomas Gospel uplifting, confirming, and believable.
If you can get by all that, "The Thomas Book" itself (which is the latter half of the book) is tremendous. I recommend that you leave the first half to LAST. In my opinion, the personal drama takes much away from the story that is supposed to be the point of the book. I won't give that story away here. Let me just say: Be prepared to have much of what you previously believed challenged..... And Prepare for strong feelings of Love and Security.
(For your info, the Thomas Book is only available through the website (link) I provided.)
Now... About "Channeling"
I've come to accept many different concepts than those I started out with as a young girl. I've always believed that our Soul survives - early religious upbringing. But now I believe in reincarnation. I believe our soul survives and continues through many lifetimes. And I believe time is relative. And I believe "thoughts are things".
I first learned of that idea through the Edgar Cayce material. Then came Louise Hay and Unity and all manner of New Age/New Thought teachers and metaphysical studies. I learned that "psychic" is not evil, but means "of the soul"; and that those with psychic gifts very often have them because they have developed a deep connection with "gifts of the Spirit". So all things psychic became a part of the learning.
Psychic beliefs conclude that there are all manner of "planes of existence". And contrary to what many start out thinking, psychic/spiritual beliefs more often than not are based around all that is good in the Universe. So a belief in ghosts? Yes. Belief that they are always evil? NO. Belief in Angels? Yes. Belief in survival of the Spirit/ the Soul? ABSOLUTELY.
Belief that all these exist only in the "heavenly realms" where we have no access? NO. Psychic/Spiritual beliefs say that the planes of existence and all those who dwell within them are all around us, all the time. Psychic/spiritual beliefs state that we have access through prayer, meditation, and other states of awareness, such as sleep. When we "tune in" we receive psychic/spiritual impressions and assistance all the time.
That is how "mediums" access others. Most people know that nowadays. Another concept beyond Mediums is that of "channeling". Channeling means that the "receivers" have the ability to move their personal ego/consciousness aside, or even completely leave their body, so that another entity (or consciousness) may take over the writing tablet, keyboard, or even the entire body.
Somewhat muddy is the concept of what I call "Direct Communication". Some people receive "blocks of thoughts/concepts" - such as Esther Hicks of Abraham-Hicks or Neale Donald Walsch who wrote the Conversations With God series. I distinguish these from those who receive word for word dictation such as is said to the be case with Helen Schumann, the scribe of A Course in Miracles. Although Esther is said to "channel" Abraham when she speaks, she states she receives as "blocks of thought/concepts" and I don't believe Neale ever stated that he received word for word "dictation", though I may be wrong...
So, yes, after years of study and personal experiences, I do believe in all of the above. I also believe that all of the above links provide a wealth of knowledge and potential for personal and spiritual growth. I invite you to check out those that interest you and happy exploring!
Love and Blessings,